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bi bi break up

hey there people if anyone right now is actually taking time to read this stupid post!

so i’m new here and this is my first post…

last december 15 I broke up with my boyfriend of 11 months and just so you know I’m a boy so if you wanna call it a gay relationship go ahead I couldn’t care less but what’s important is the story that I wanna share between our break up, ok

so few weeks before the actual break up we’ve been experiencing shits here and there but he was always the one who’s trying to keep everything together and I would be such a pain in the ass but definitely not passive!!! I was the one who’ll always be by his ear bitchin about stuff regarding this and that and regardless how hard he tried to compensate for his shortcomings I would always rub in his face that what he was doing is not good enough, the entire 11 months was such a roller coaster and I saw a lot shits happened with him I experienced stuff that I prolly wouldn’t experience with anyone else life became more meaningful as what others wpould say at first I thought I was going for the ride just because of constant sex but as you fall in love with the person sex becomes less and less of a priority (cause that’s what we did the first day) and the thought of it actually wears out if you know what I mean… I mean making each other happy is more of a need to you than sex but whatever that’s just, me so back to us…. we broke up cause I was  a total bitch and I guess the dude couldn’t stand it anymore so he left, and it was fine with me actually cause I feel that in that 11 months I was so inlove with him that I forgot to explore the world that did not include him that entire 11 months was just for him I felt like I’m missin out on life.. what I mean to say is I wanted to flirt I wanted to be this and that I wanted to meet people I wanted to court girls I wanted to have have 3somes and all crazy stuff which I found hard to do because of him, I know I’m crazy to sacrifice love over some immature stuff but It’s in my system I’m afraid that if I don’t get to experience all of these now I might regret it when I’m 30 and I couldn’t do it anymore cause I’ve found the essence and reason of my life, well now that I’m still young I’m pretty sure that he was not the one yet everything that I did and felt while we were together was charged to experience and lessons learned so no regrets, but this morning I was browsing picture on multiply and stumbled on his ex girlfriend’s pictures I saw that they went out and they were pretty sweet, well I wouldn’t want to assume that they got back with each other cause that’ll be a total loser-move or whatever well the girl’s pretty fugly but my ex boyfriend is just looking for a distraction I don’t know if should feel sad or sorry for the ex girlfriend cause she’s not learning her lessons in love, he left her for me and he said mean stuff about her to me I know what I’m writing now is stupid and nonsensical and I’ll prolly laugh at this 2 months from now but I just want to write it here on tumbler now I have friends with benefits but they’re all boys.,., arrrghghgh I hate it to be stucked with dicks I wanna taste some vajjjjj!! but I’m fine bye